My poems
took me my entire life to produce.
The stories I tell
are non-scripted
are non-scripted
aberrations
of time, travel and tension.
of time, travel and tension.
My earlier work was violent,
absurd, non-linear and sad.
Lesions oozing
from the world
of stirred realities
from the world
of stirred realities
and confused illusions,
I never knew
which was which …
which was which …
but I always felt
every breath deeply
every breath deeply
and every tear dramatically –
that is when I could cry…
most times my eyes
were blind and dry –
were blind and dry –
I had seen and given,
too much of myself
too much of myself
to produce any more
expendable moisture
of any kind.
expendable moisture
of any kind.
I gave away my Soul
each moment,
while creating the art
of my living.
while creating the art
of my living.
I gave away
my Soul,
my Soul,
performing
for the masses,
of undesiring
audiences.
for the masses,
of undesiring
audiences.
I no longer stand
on window ledges
on window ledges
and rooftops watching
pedestrians,
pedestrians,
shouting out to them,
at them
or with them…
Nor do I write
anymore of wounds
anymore of wounds
to perpetuate
the violent complexity
the violent complexity
of my inner struggle,
and defeated Self-esteem.
I no longer
bang my head
bang my head
against walls,
sidewalks
or doorways
to the unknown.
sidewalks
or doorways
to the unknown.
I no longer
roam the streets
homeless,
roam the streets
homeless,
rejected
and denied -
and denied -
with no place to sleep,
and no sleep to reap
deeply fulfilling dreams.
deeply fulfilling dreams.
There are things that I saw
that no one should ever have to witness seen.
There are words that I heard
that no one should ever have to hear spoken.
Due to it all, life, my life -
this experience of living hell
and questionable mental sanity -
I have blossomed –
flowered from a seed hiding,
germinating, in the dirt,
into a woman forged of fortitude
to battle standing up
the chaos of the world within,
the chaos of the world within,
and the world without.
I know I am foolish enough
to always find a store of optimism,
to always find a store of optimism,
to forgive everything
and wake up the next day, fully present,
and wake up the next day, fully present,
having forgot the ruin
and destruction of the past day before.
and destruction of the past day before.
I know that I am a loving person,
and that each moment is an opportunity
to redefine myself, to myself, for myself.
I know fully
that each day
is an exercise in discovering -
that each day
is an exercise in discovering -
new ways to love myself,
no matter what…
and so the journey goes on -
until it ceases to exist…
until it ceases to exist…
My eternal I
further ventures
further ventures
into the wonderland
of the bodiless soul of adventure -
of the bodiless soul of adventure -
I will never cease,
nor desist,
because without a doubt,
I know I fully exist.
~~ Other People's Fingerprints ~~
William F. Scolavino wrote;
“The height of your accomplishments
will equal the depth of your convictions.”